Tomorrow, I'm going to Wingchun by myself. For the first time. Fear, is the first thing i feel. Haha I just get so used to practising sticky hands with kow, i dont even think anyone would be willing to practice with a noob like me, who always flails her hands everywhere (like dancing, or so to quote sifu)>< What if no girl even goes tomorrow? Or those girls who go are the really advanced ones? And wait if sifu asks everyone to practice 'sticky hands'? Where will i go? HAHA had this conversation:

[10:47:26 PM] christabella says: you ask someone else go with you lorh
[10:47:29 PM] Ho Xinyi says: YES DEAD SRS
[10:47:30 PM] christabella says: if not waste money
[10:47:39 PM] Ho Xinyi says: PLEASE LA, WHO IN THE WORLD WILL GO LEARN WINGCHUN
[10:47:44 PM] Ho Xinyi says: IN OUR CIRCLE OF FRIENDS
[10:47:45 PM] christabella says: YA HAHAHHAAHA
[10:47:47 PM] Ho Xinyi says: OR EVEN HCI
[10:47:48 PM] christabella says: DAMN FUNNY

yes, really funny. come to think of it, I doubt anyone would want to go to such a lesson. It just so... uncommon. That's why sometimes i wonder if i was born out of an egg rather than from my mom's womb. I have such different interests than the social norm. backstreetboys, wingchun, etc. But wingchun really does help me relieve the stress after a days work, and i really like the pain (sounds sadistic) and I like the feeling of me persevering even though i feel the pain right through my bones. (Come to think of it, i think we use too much strength. its all about STRUCTURE STRUCTURE AND STRUCTURE. COMEONMAN XINYI YOU CAN DO IT.)This is a real new experience, dabbling in martial arts. My brother tells me not to tell my guy friends that i'm learning martial arts. Why must there be such social conformities? Oh girls must learn dance and singing to be lady-like and to be girlish and to be this and that blah blah blah. Nah, I'm just gonna be myself and do what I enjoy doing, but at the same time still be lady-like and well-mannered. HAHA but wingchun and lady does sound rather ironical.

On a lighter note, borrowed Lolita, its so popular that i had to pay $1.55 to reserve the book!:/ Now i know where nlb gets its money from. Fines and this. But, HAHA. It is really quite a sensually humorous book. The usage of words was amazing, AND... HUMBERT HUMBERT>< OMG, FUNNY! haha

OKAY COMEONE XINYI, YOU GOTTA BRACE YOURSELF, BE INDEPENDENT. IF NOBODY WANT TO 'STICKY HANDS'WITH YOU, YOU 'STICKY HANDS' WITH YOURSELF. DO AGAINST THE MIRROR OR WITH THE MIRROR(eeps sounds weird). SHELLA KOH GET WELL SOON. INDEPENDENT INDEPENDENT INDEPENDENT...

-exposed duck.