Listening to pathetique sonata mvmt 2 now. Its really so soothing and reaches the heart, relaxing the soul entirely and completely. Sometimes, I really enjoy a little quiet time by myself, listening to soothing music and just doing my own stuff. It really releases all the stresses from the mind:)

yesterday,I went to church and heard this really beautiful line: Cast all your cares on Him. It really makes me feel that I have nothing to worry about. I feel that sometimes, people need a little bit of faith in life. Being skeptical about everything in life will lead only to bitterness and suspicion about everything.
Today, something simple but wonderful happened to me.I forgot to bring my cardkey to work today. By right, i couldnt get into the office because i needed the cardkey to open the door. So on the mrt to work, i just prayed that someone who goes to the office would take the same lift as me or that the door would be open so that i dont have to wait outside helplessly or trouble someone by pressing the doorbell. So, when i went up the lift, i reached the entrance, i was absolutely relieved to see the door was wide open. But the amazing thing was that immediately after i went through the door and sat at my worktable, the receptionist reported to work and closed the door. Yeah, it might have been argued to be luck. But i chose to believe in the higher work of God:) It's always good to have a little faith:) good things can happen to you.

New word I learnt today: Scatological intensity
Scatological: the study of or preoccupation with excrement or obscenity.
who would have thought we could use it like that? Haha probably the writer meant that the intensity level was as intense as preoccupation or obsession with excrement/obscenity. I don't know how that make sense actually O_o

I just watched The Notebook! Yeah I know its a 2004 production and i'm kinda lag in watching it but.... OMG its one of the most beautiful love stories i've ever heard. i cried at 2 separate scenes, it was so touching:O it makes me wonder if such a love ever exists in real life (i know how tv can always give pple very idealistic views about love), but if it were to exist, that would be so beautiful, so so beautiful.

the other day i went to immigration and checkpoints authority to change my passport because the photo was too old and unrecognizable. I decided there and then that i would change the photo on my i/c too, (i really wonder what possessed me to have that kind of hairstyle or look that way few years ago, horrifying picture that scares everyone away). I remember when people want to check my i/c last time, they would say:

movie security guy: may i look at your i/c? cos you're watching an M18 show
me: ERR... may i not show it to you? I'm 18, my friends are all 18 too.
movie security guy: sorry, must follow rules

and i reluctantly pull out my i/c giving it to him and turning away, too embarrassed to look at his reaction.

At the "change i/c" counter.

female officer: how may i help you?
me: i'd like to change my i/c photo
female officer: how old are you?
me: 19
female officer: do you know you can change it when you're 30? why do you want to change now?
me: because i'm only 19? there's many years till i become 30?
female officer: *gives the weird stare* okay, pass me your i/c

i wonder why a lot of people like to ask why and probe more then what their job expects them to do. maybe its because of the dreariness of their mundane job that they seek to find smtg or do smtg that changes the rote of their daily living. i rmb encountering a bus driver that talked to me. i boarded the bus in sports attire and carrying a badminton bag. I didnt bring my ez link card and was planning on paying adult fare.

me: uncle ah, how much is adult fare ah?
bus driver: xiaomei, eh why do you want to pay adult fare? 55cents will do.
me: but... (hesistates) orh okayy (*why not? can save money too. hehe*)

i find it quite funny, but oh wells, I got to save some money, so who's complaining?

there they are at it again. :( yeah i know i'm going to explore new creation church tomorrow. yeah i know that there is a scandal revolving around this church due to its massive amount of money spent on building a greater and grander church. They warn me that some pastors are just SO charismatic that they can convince you to do anything (and give an example of some cult group that claims to have christian origins). at that moment i felt my face slightly flushed with anger. How can you compare a cult group to an established church organisation. Them spending lots of donations to build a church instead of giving it to the poor and needy can only be understood as logical or mildly reasonable in the religious sense. The church is the body of Christ. By spending on rebuilding a greater church, its something like creating greater and bigger grounds for more people to come together to worship God, the way i understand it. In the end, all it benefits is the people. Non-christians will never be able to understand or tolerate this fact thats why they keep harping on it once, twice, many times. If they dont wish me to donate, I won't donate. But why keep harping and harping like its a sin to contribute to the building of the church, like i'm this innocent naive girl who might easily be preyed upon by churches to distort and twist the boundaries of my faith? I've discretion, thank you for your advice, I will take everything with a pinch of salt, but I'm quite tired of hearing the same old lines over and over again. Because you won't understand where I am coming from. God, I pray, please help me enlighten them.

if i say you can, means you can:) what powerful words of encouragement. I felt so much more confident after my instructor said that. I must say I am quite happy with my parking and my circuit driving except for the fact that i need to be more cautious and look up for any incoming cars and motorcycles and make sure i dont hit the curb. however i'm still not very fluid in my changing of gears. that i have to work on. Well i really do hope i pass the first time round:/

asking spongebob to make mrs.smith the 100%? at that moment, spongebob hesitated. why did mrs smith say that? why not mr and mrs smith 50-50%? but how cld spongebob doubt mrs. smith? she took care of spongebob be it sickness or in gd health ever since spongebob was born. Everything she did was in spongebob's interests. how could spongebob ever think that way? spongebob must admonish himself for thinking like that. spongebob should think good of people and spongebob should repay the love and care given to him. Gratitude. God's will: The attitude of gratitude. True gratitude does not give up. He walks beside us. He never forsakes us. Spongebob believes in that and spongebob believes He will help. Help him to be a more grateful sponge.